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martin is talking about business continuity plans and i cannot say i am not actually following his ideas, i pay sufficient attention to what he's saying, but at the same time i am a bit mesmerised with his receding hair line. there are pills now for hair loss, does he know that? and even if you don't know about them or you think they're too dangerous, you still should have the decency to cut your hair short. now he's giving the example of 9/11. how many businesses were impacted when their employees died and they did not have proper business continuity plans. they did not correctly measure the risk so to design adequate mitigators, this is what happened, or at least this is what martin thinks. there were billion of dollars lost because of an incorrect risk assessment.

after this meeting i feel numb all day, i think it may be from too much protein but i'm not sure. this morning i was 78.3 kilos and later in the day i pushed to 550 ab-crunches. i feel good about myself and though i am absent i am able to smile at people in what i think it is a more authentic way.

later i arrive at home and decide to do some more ab-crunches and then i drink a banana protein shake with soy milk. the taste is awful so i try to change favours from time to time. then i watch tv for a while. it is this show about a homosexual guy trapped in a heterosexual woman's body, this girl celia who wants to be a male homo. i think i even doze off for a while. then i drink another protein shake and i watch some more tv, this time some commercials to frying pans and magic pots. i go in the kitchen and count my pots and i have three, which seems to be enough for one person. then i go on facebook and then on google+ and after that there isn't much to do so i watch a porn. two hot latinos, one tall and well hung and the other one kind of petit body, yet a very muscular bubble butt. then i take a shower and spend some thirty minutes inspecting my skin, thinking about 2012 and the end of the world. i suspect a certain conversational pleasure about this subject, we seem to have finally something that it is worth talking about. it is about the weather, about vacation plans, about risk management, about pans and pots. and sometimes it is about sex. i jerk off and i am lost in the sweat that i see shining on my chest, in the mirror. yes, sometimes it is about sex.